Hard to believe I was only 16...

    Nothing to do but love
     6-5-02~ 2:32 am
Your love like the kiss of death, you bring out the best and worst in me.
Confusion sets in as my emotions swirl out of control.
Want to die, want to cry. Try to live, try to win.
Put aside my plans all for you. Put aside my struggle all for you.
All for you, nothing to do but love.
Hating you, Loving you. You keep me alive, i hate that about you.
Want to be cold, but to you i must hold. I must try, I must die.
Pain so overwhelming, feel so loved, feel so used.
About to explode, nothing to do but love.
Try again, cry again. Love more, hurt more.
Like an addiction you remain in me, coursing through me.
No escape. no way out. There's no turning back.
My heart cries, my soul fades.All for you...all for you.
Nothing to do but love.

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 R.I.P.
  6-5-02~ 2:40 am
Your eyes so loving, such a lie. Why won't you die?
Leave me be to rest in peace.
You cry for me so would you die for me?
Want to run but your love and promises always find me.
Look the door and throw away the key. i don't want to be free.
Leave me be to rest in peace.
Your words, your actions. So believable, too real.
Too good to be true, such trickery.
No more, please no more.
Let me die, let me go. Burn me and kill my soul.
Use me, abuse me. Make me hate you. Please kill this love.
Pain, Anger, Passion, Lies. Love me not, Kill me now.
Brush me away like a fly, make me want to die.
End it now and take a bow. Smile big and go on.
Leave me be to rest in peace, eternally.