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4-20-10 11:02am

I wait, I long, I crave
How long shall I suffer in your absence?
Nothing comes close to filling the void you left
I’m so cold without you here
I’m scared and alone
Nothing makes sense
Nothing matters at all
I don’t even know who you are
How do you miss someone so terribly?
How do you ache so deeply for a stranger?
I know you
My soul recognizes you
My body craves you
My heart stutters when thinking of you
Only you
I await you

Part 2
It hurts, an ache so deeply ingrained in me
I can’t speak your name when the pain comes
I can’t see your face when the darkness pours in
Overwhelming and blinding is this curse of mine
The despair so profound, it threatens to consume
Tears fall never ending, watch me drown
When I descend, there will be no turning back
Only thoughts of you keep me above the surface
Dreams are all I have left of you.
To sleep forever would be a kinder fate.

Fiction
4-20-10 11:15am
Please take these memories from me
I want to live
I want more than to merely exist
I’m so tired of waiting on a dream
This isn’t reality
My heart is somewhere else
My mind in another time
Please just make the pain stop
Wash away the stains upon my soul
The despair is so heavy I can barely stand
Purge this agony
I can’t take it anymore
I don’t want to remember… anything
Burn my insides, cleanse me of everything
Please kill this love, this dark obsession
I’m so tired of crying
let the skies weep for me
Take it all away, take everything
Let me go. You don’t exist.
You are nothing more than fiction.
A lie. A trick. A false hope.
You are driving me insane.
I can’t love you anymore,
I can’t live like this.