Sweet Release

My back is against a wall
The bridge collapsing below
the waves beneath haunt me
beckoning and calling
that luring pull that promises so much
the sweet release I crave
Oh, if only to fall
I would soar if only for a moment
Your hand beseeches me
begs me to step away
The ledge crumbles
I wouldn't even have to move
Do I risk stepping back?
Back to what?
Only pain and misery await me
Illusions and lies
pointless hopes and dreams
The waves match your eyes
If it makes you happy
it can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
then why are you so sad?
I smile and step foward
Crashing into the waves
I soar if only for a moment
Its all I ever asked for

Foolish Pride

I told you once
I even told you twice
not to cross that line
but you had prove you're a man
but you're just a fool

You better wake up
and take a look around
you may notice a thing... or two
You're standing all alone
with only your pride by your side
blinded by your ego
and imaginary pain
you better open your eyes
instead of shutting them tight
You want be a man
but you're just a fool
a fool
a damn stubborn fool

I tried to cool
I tried to forgive
But you had to keep pushing me
You had to cross that goddamn line
Now you better think twice
before I really let loose

You better wake up
and take a look around
you may notice a thing... or two
You're standing all alone
with only your pride by your side
blinded by your ego
and imaginary pain
you better open your eyes
instead of shutting them tight
You want be a man
but you're just a fool
a fool
a damn stubborn fool

Penance

I came to see you today
Yet all I talked about was her
I should have spoke of the joy of new life
maybe told you of the day's events
Instead I sat shadowed in past
I asked you for forgiveness
and got an answering smile
That's how you always were
You lived in happiness
You stormed the world with that beaming smile
So different... you two were
I see your family hurt
hurt the way I should have for her
and the tears finally come
Years too late
That gracefully carved stone calms me
even seeing your name etched so clearly
can't seem to tarnish what I feel
Maybe this is my penance
I grieve for you both
as if time is nonexistent

Without a Trace

Who am I to hope, wish or pray?
Just another nameless exile
in a constant state of loneliness
Who was I to dare to dream?
I knew of the sacrifice to be made
Still I longed for and even tasted
I know now that such hopes are pointless
I could not bare to hold such as you
A mockery of whom I should be
I am denied such simplicity
I am tarnished and unwhole
A shadow of what would be
doomed to fade a distant memory

No Regrets

Where is the cold numbness I have come to rely on?
Why can't I shut this off and sink into the void?
I cannot escape this, there's nowhere to run.
No hiding from myself or the pain found within.
I have become lost in this maelstrom.
I have no one to blame but myself.
I knew the outcome, I thought I accepted it.
I was so very wrong and now pay the price.
What a beautiful mistake...

Goodbye

The wounds are fresh and old at once.

Not long ago I was here before.

The pain seems so much more so.

You would think time heals all

Maybe I was wrong to hope for as much

I can only stay strong and try to move on

Carry on for my love of you

Take a chill pill, you would intone

Gods, I miss you already.

Say hello to her for me

Let her know that I’m okay.

Ethereal Beauty

The night air infuses me with life

Basking in the glory of the moon

I lay surrounded by green grass

And gaze at the ever growing trees

They stretch silently towards the sky

As if wishing to touch the very heavens

A soft wind caresses my skin

My soul dances among the stars

Soaring ever higher following paths unknown

This is where I belong