Get a grip

Gods help me, they're back. I couldn't wake up. Fuck. I couldn't escape.
I screamed but nothing came out.
I fought but no to avail.
I couldn't move, couldn't breathe.
My whole body aches.
I can't shake the feeling.
It clings heavy stifling the air around me.
I'm awake dammit!
It's not real.
It's not real.
It's not real.
Please stop. Please let me be awake this time. Shaken, my soul trembles.
One step forward. Two steps back.
One step forward. Two steps back.
Eventually, it will be two steps forward.
Just breathe. Remember to breathe.
Don't fall back asleep.