Dawning

I have waited. I have yearned.
Memories of what was, Dreams of what may
Were all that kept me sane.
Time and time again. 
I tried to forget, I pushed and fought.
Desperate to escape the past 
and forge forward anew.
But what am I without you? Half of a person.
Half of me and half of you. Never whole.
For the void you left is an infinite abyss.
I used to dream of you every night 
and dread the dawn's approach.
Always being torn from you,
Ripped from my heart.
I can't breathe at the thought of losing you again.
I cling tight and hold you close.  
The darkness of dreams our sanctuary.
I breathe you in...
And once more dread the dawn's light.

Purity found within a child's eyes. Replicas of my own. Now I see myself, I see everything I've lost and gained. Every mistake and triumph. That tiny hand reaches out, a playful smile upon pink lips. A warmth I've never known spreads throughout. The cold numbness, my blanket, my shield, dissolves in an instant. I'm bewitched. Enchanted. Lost. Forever more. This is my world. His happiness suddenly all that matters. Where did I go? I don't even care. I was nothing before. A shadow of a person. Now this tiny person grows and consumes me. I'm better than before. He is my world.