Without a Trace

Who am I to hope, wish or pray?
Just another nameless exile
in a constant state of loneliness
Who was I to dare to dream?
I knew of the sacrifice to be made
Still I longed for and even tasted
I know now that such hopes are pointless
I could not bare to hold such as you
A mockery of whom I should be
I am denied such simplicity
I am tarnished and unwhole
A shadow of what would be
doomed to fade a distant memory

No Regrets

Where is the cold numbness I have come to rely on?
Why can't I shut this off and sink into the void?
I cannot escape this, there's nowhere to run.
No hiding from myself or the pain found within.
I have become lost in this maelstrom.
I have no one to blame but myself.
I knew the outcome, I thought I accepted it.
I was so very wrong and now pay the price.
What a beautiful mistake...